Dantes & Jynxzi Have a 3 AM Conversation

Dude, isn't it crazy how like life kind

of just keeps flying by?

>> I know, bro.

But before you know it, you're going to

be like walking around with a cane.

>> Dude, you know what one of the things I

saw

when I was younger that always used to

like

make me really think a lot about things?

>> What?

>> So like when I was younger, I was in

college, right?

And

I would wake up every morning at 5:30

a.m. to take the bus to the train

station and then take the train

to another bus station where then I go

to school, right? From the bus station.

And back then when I used to be on the

train,

I used to look around, right? Cuz one of

the things that I always liked doing was

just like observing people, you know?

And it's like I would look around and

I'd see

the 5-year-old kid

with his parents and he has his backpack

and his lunchbox, you know?

And then I'd look and I'd see the

13-year-old kid going to high school

with his backpack and his lunchbox.

And then there'd be the the college guy,

you know? 18 years old, [music]

backpack, lunchbox.

Then the guy that just joined the

workforce at 25 with his backpack and

his lunchbox, you know?

And then the guy that works right in his

like 30s with the backpack and a

lunchbox.

And then the guy that's like 70 with the

backpack and the lunchbox.

>> you sure they all had a lunchbox?

>> All of them. And I remember seeing them.

And I remember seeing that

and thinking to myself like, dude,

isn't it crazy

how like life really works in like

stages? But it's like you can really

observe that progression. You know what

I mean?

It's like everyone has different stages

of life, but it's kind of like

you're always going to go towards a

certain spot for the most part. You know

what I mean?

>> Yeah, bro. I mean

all roads just lead to like the end, you

know?

>> Yeah.

Cuz it doesn't matter if you're like I

got it set so that you work at on a

radio station or you work in as like a

doctor or you're a streamer, you know?

Like the bottom line is you're going to

have your job, you're going to work,

you're going to have your family, and

then one day you're going to have a

maybe a wife, have children.

You're going to grow old and you're

going to die. And it's like no matter

who you are and no matter

where you are,

it's like for most people

that's going to be your experience, you

know?

And the only thing that really changes

are the experiences that you live while

that's going on, you know?

>> Damn, dude.

That's deep.

Bro, I mean I remember when I was in

>> [clears throat]

>> it was my senior year

of high school. And you know how like

you know how in the back of your mind

you like you know you're going to die

one day, but you don't really like think

about it that much and it kind of like

passes by?

>> Yeah.

>> So like I would never really think about

it, especially when I was in high

school. Like I would just like, you

know, go do whatever, like do school,

play video games, see my friends, play

sports, just like normal. And um

I remember my senior year of high school

we read this Shakespeare book. And I

don't remember the name of the book, but

he had this quote in it and he's like it

doesn't matter like who you are or like

where you come from. I mean I'm

butchering the quote, but he said like

rich or poor, like king or like peasant,

like we all sleep with the worms. Like

it doesn't matter

like what you do. And like that was the

first time I ever really like

not conceptualized it, but that was the

first time I couldn't get out of my

head, you know?

>> Yeah.

>> And then, what ends up happening is like

I go through my day, I wake up, I

[music] eat, I see my family, and then I

like go right into like streaming or

whatever, but then like it isn't until

like I'm in bed and I'm looking up at my

ceiling when I actually think like, "Oh,

yeah, I'm going to die." And that's like

most days, you know?

And I guess part of it

is sad, but it's also kind of like in a

way positive if you think about it,

because like you have limited time on

the earth, so you may as well like make

the most of it. Because imagine if

somebody walked up to you, tapped you on

the shoulder, and said, "You're going to

be alive forever. Like it's never going

to end, no matter how bad you might want

it to end, you're going to be alive for

50,000 years times a million. You're

never going to die." It would be weird,

cuz then life would have no meaning, cuz

you would do everything, see everything.

It would just you would get bored. You'd

just be aimlessly roaming the earth.

So,

I look at it kind of like that, you

know?

>> You know, there's this one quote that uh

Kindred has actually like

>> Kindred, the lead character?

>> Yeah.

And it's essentially something along the

lines of like

"Things are beautiful because beauty

fades." You know?

>> Damn, bro. That's Yeah, that's good. But

is that something you have every night

or like every night you look up at the

ceiling and you think like, "One day I'm

going to die"?

>> No, it just only hits me when it's 3:00

in the morning. But like

>> that, yeah.

>> But like

80% of the nights, 90% of the nights,

no, but like it literally will never hit

me in the morning or in the daytime,

like never. Or when I'm streaming, it'll

never hit me. But then it's like right

when I lay down, like that's when it has

a chance of hitting me. Do you know what

I mean?

>> Dude,

for me,

no, I get that cuz on my first career

trip, right? So, I was always the guy

where I sat there and I'm like I used to

be like I have 10 viewers, but I'll be

happy when I get 100. I have 100, I'll

be happy when I average 1,000. I have

1,000, I'll be happy when I average like

10,000, you know, etc.

>> Yeah, like you had a problem of just not

appreciating like what you had.

>> So, at one point what ended up happening

was some point I'm in Korea for the

first time, right?

>> [music]

>> And during that time frame

there were times where I was really

averaging 20,000 viewers, you know.

And I remember that every night I would

go to bed

and I would be living my dream, you

know, it's like I'm playing video games

for a living. I'm like I have every day

like streams where I can like connect

with people, share experiences. I can

sit there like I have a great career, I

have a great family, I have like

friends, everything, you know?

And every single night that I would go

to bed, there would just be this feeling

of like emptiness.

You know? Literal just emptiness where

no matter how much I would have or how

much around me there would be, it's like

it would never fill that emptiness

inside, you know? So, it's like yeah,

you can keep striving, but it never

[music]

has anything that actually like fills

it, right?

And I'm not kidding, the only time that

that actually like really changed was

when I met my wife, you know? And that I

was willing to be like the world isn't

just about work

and about like getting to the top and

about like becoming like known or or

wealthy or whatever it is. Like

>> [music]

>> there's more to life than just that, you

know? Like there's connections, there's

people, there's relationships and all

that. And then when I was actually

willing to sit there and say I'm going

to really like

make my life more well-rounded

and really sit there and like

You know, cuz it took time, but as I sat

there and over the course of months and

years and stuff like that, you know, I

managed to get more of a well-rounded

kind of like

>> Yeah, you had like balance.

>> Yeah, like more of a balance. That

that's when like

I don't

feel that way like ever anymore. You

know what I mean? Like that feeling of

like emptiness or something like it's

legitimately just like gone. [music]

So, that's why I think that the problem

with most people is really like

you're going to sit there and you're

going to have like this idea of

"You know, if I just get this, then it

will all be so good." But, it's like

yeah, no.

>> That mindset will never That mindset

will never get you anywhere, bro.

>> Yeah, cuz that mindset what people don't

realize is that's what causes the whole

You know what I'm talking about?

>> Yeah, you just

Because like you with that mindset you

climb on top of a rock and then you look

at like a bigger rock and then a bigger

rock and then you just kind of spend

your whole life climbing. Rather than

like appreciating [snorts] anything.

>> Yes, exactly.

>> It's very knowledgeable, bro.

>> That's cuz I'm in this and like uh

I feel like over the course of years, as

long as you're willing to like

learn

and really like absorb and also sit

there and like

kind of like realize more of who you

are, why you do things, all that kind of

stuff.

Like anyone has the capacity for like

introspection, you know, or like

learning more about themselves. It's

just that I feel like most of the time

people, they're just kind of like,

"Nah." You know what I mean? Like no

point in doing that. But, I feel like

anybody has like the capability for it.

>> Yeah.

100%, bro.

>> Like dude, can you believe there are

some people that they're in their like

40s and they're just running down league

games in Iron 3 as level 308 players,

and they're asking for like six gangs

just so that

they're not ending games completely.

Oh god, bro.

Yeah, dude. League's the only game like

that, I swear to god. I I like

League of Legends is the only game where

I've actually met like legitimate

creatures, bro.

>> Yep.

>> You know what's actually funny? Like

earlier when you were talking a little

bit about like that Shakespeare quote

and how it really made you think of

that. You know what it was for me?

>> Mhm.

>> Weirdly enough, it was Technoblade, bro.

>> When Technoblade passed?

>> Yeah. So, around that time, do you

remember the story that I was telling

you about how like I'd almost died from

like my heart issues?

>> Yeah, it was the other night.

>> Yeah.

So, the thing about that and the reason

why I ended up actually taking my

recovery more seriously

is cuz

I remember at one point, you know,

I'm sitting there and I'm having a

conversation with my parents and they're

like, "Dude, like why don't you just sit

down and why don't you just take a

break, you know? Like just relax. Like

your health matters. Take a break, you

know?"

And

I remember that was the only time I ever

like lost it on my dad, you know, and my

mom.

And I remember I was like walking up the

stairs and

cuz my my parents, they they were

looking at me, right?

And they're like, "Dude, like you're

able to put a smile on

every day for your stream, but then when

you're with us, like you can't even like

pretend, you know? Like Like why is it

that you sit there and you give

everything to them, but then for like

your family, you give nothing, you

know?"

And I remember losing it and just like

screaming like

"It's cuz it's all I have left, you

know? Cuz at that time I was like rock

bottom, right?"

And then afterwards, you know, we had a

talk. We ended up like resolving things,

and it was like, okay, again.

But, I still wanted to sit there and

like grow my streams and everything. And

I was like, dude, like, even if it puts

me in the ground, like, I don't give a

[ __ ] I just need to sit there and like

grind.

Even though I'm not supposed to, and I

need to like recover from my heart

issues, you know.

Then, at one point, I I'm like just

scrolling like Twitter one day, and then

I get the news that Technoblade passed,

you know.

And that's for me when it really like

hit, where I'm like, dude,

there's this guy that had

infinitely [music]

more

than I could ever dream of, you know.

[music]

He has this crazy fan base, tens of

millions of subscribers on YouTube,

right? People that like love him and

adore him and and everything.

And even someone that was able to

achieve all that,

you know, like, because they didn't have

their health,

it was all for like

not all for nothing, you know, but but

they were still able to like [music]

pass just like anyone else, you know.

And that for me was when it really

clicked, and I was like, dude, like,

health [music] really is important, bro.

Like, you can't sit there and you can't

[ __ ] like scorn it, cuz

not saying that he did, but like, if you

sit there and you like give up on your

health

to like chase a dream or a goal or

something like that,

then it's like,

>> [music]

>> if one day you don't have your health,

then you can't even enjoy the things

that you grind for, you know.

>> Yeah.

Dude, I remember [music] I um

my mom like

she knows like everyone. Like, in

Florida, like, she has all these friends

[music] and stuff. And

um

like, she had like a bunch of friends

that like she worked her own businesses

with when she was much younger. And she

knew this one guy who was literally like

a billionaire. Like, not like a

millionaire, like he was a billionaire.

But when he was like 40, he got cancer.

And he literally like flew all over the

globe. Like every country, different

cities, the best doctors, the best

treatment, trying to get it treated. And

like no matter how much money he would

throw at it, like he never could get it

treated. He just passed. And like it

Like my mom kind of just told me like

wealth doesn't really matter if you're

not like healthy because that guy had

like all the money in the world, but she

said

um he told her that he would like give

it all away if he just didn't have

cancer. He could just live the rest of

his life like with no money, you know?

>> Yeah.

>> So that was like all like that was a

good like lesson my mom taught me when I

was younger.

>> Yeah.

Yeah, cuz that's the thing. I feel like

it's one of those things where you

really sit there and like you kind of

scorn it until one day something happens

to you and you realize just how fragile

it is, you know?

>> Yeah.

Time is up.

I don't think it's like I'm going to

guess it's

3:20.

Do you like Do you want to go to sleep?

>> Yeah, let's do it.

>> All right.

All right, guys.