Moniece Slaughter: Apryl Jones dating Fizz, Shaq Cheating, Glorilla costing her MONEY

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one of the women who I considered to be

one of the force multipliers of Love &

Hip Hop franchise the outspoken the

beautiful The Talented monice Slaughter

thank you thank you thank you for having

me I made it you're so pretty in person

thank you I don't do well with

compliments they make me

like no listen you're a baddy you're a

baddie you really are and you're you're

so sweet you don't do a lot of

interviews either so I appreciate you

saying yes thank you to talking to me

when you were on reality television but

I want to take a step back I do feel

like you're so

misunderstood because you are an

outspoken woman I didn't think you liked

me you didn't think I liked you why cuz

I had commented on a few things before

and I was just

like I see he responds to a lot of

like reality stars but I get I was like

I don't know know like did I do

something did I you respond to me like

like like on my page or like on the

blogs like anywhere you've popped up and

then like I followed you then I

unfollowed you I was like [ __ ] him he

didn't follow me

back we're going to settle that I was

like unfollow well we don't want any of

that boo so follow you back no that's

the thing no the thing about it is this

that is so funny I always thought you

were so fascinating cuz I'm a huge fan

of the franchise and when Hollywood came

about I mean listen girl obviously you

know you were one the one to watch cuz

you just didn't give a [ __ ] and and and

and and and that was so fasc fascinating

to me but what more so is is your your

background because I don't feel

like people really know you you know

they know what we've seen on the show

what we' seen in the blogs and we'll

touch on that too so that I'm able to

get some clarity from you about those

things but more

importantly you really do come from a

legacy of Highly Successful musicians

your father was a part of take six which

is an iconic iconic group so you grew up

in this

industry and what was that like for you

though like did you know your father was

was like that guy no actually I

mean if that's all you know mhm he was

just my dad like I knew he sang I knew

he toured I knew he traveled but I

didn't really realize the impact

honestly

until I want to say

like within the past like six or seven

years when I realized how many of my

peers from Chris Brown to Eric Bellinger

to and I won't Usher is in a league of

his own but even Usher tidal sign was

Khalifa all the sampling that these

artists do um Usher listens to them

before he does his shows um so I didn't

really realize the I think the first

time I realized like whoa was when he

started doing working with the back

street boys M and then I was like oh

shoot you know but then

time goes on you know so it was just

normal I

didn't think like whoa but I was

actually fascinated to know how many

people in my generation music who were

like literally musically inclined and

gifted um not just knew about him but

we're actually like students so that was

pretty cool to

learn did you always have this innate

Talent of singing Because of Who your

father was well he's not my biological

father um but he has raised me my entire

life um andan he and my mom were

childhood sweethearts literally like

second and third grade so

um I didn't know I could sing I wanted

to be a gold medalist I wanted to be a

gymnast so I was not

even thinking about music and then that

came up and then I was just like oh I

can sing

who knew because nobody on either

biological side of my family is a

singer so not my biological dad and not

my mom you know she makes up words as

she goes to the songs convinces herself

that those are the words you know I

don't know what my biod dad does but um

I know he doesn't sing I know that's for

for damn sure so um but I didn't find

out I could sing so I was like 15 or 16

wow that later in life

mhm how did you find out my dad was

producing uh my cousin my big cousin's

album and they needed some he needed

somebody to come in and do some

backgrounds and he came to me and he was

like do you think you could hit this

note and he gave me the note and he was

like surprisingly good can you hit this

one so he just kept asking me to hit the

notes and we were at home and he was

like I think you can do it he was like

it should be fairly easy you seem to be

a good listener which is shocking um um

but you know he told me about the

differences in live singing and Studio

singing he was like it might be easy for

you I think it'll be easy but take into

consideration you'll have on headphones

you'll be hearing like a bunch of

different sounds and instruments and

you'll hear a lead vocal and you're

going to hear the chorus but I need you

to focus on your note and

so being in the studio was easy it

wasn't hard and then my dad was like I

think I could make you something

and so from there he did he started

making like tracks for me in different

genres um teaching me how to write

music um he tried to teach me guitar I

was like H [ __ ] this you know I couldn't

wear like the nails and playing guitar

for real like your fingers get bloody

and it's just weird so um from there I

just figured out my Niche which is R&B

and I'm very much a b singer and writer

and I used to hate that um but like all

things you grew up wisdom experience and

it's not a bad thing to be able to say

like okay this is what I'm good at let

me now Outsource so now I do work with

like other writers for my own projects

which I never did before so every

project was always like slow and ballady

and I never had mids I never had

uptempos and now I have like a little

bit of everything but I still get to

write my ballads which is is basically

how I write my story I it's weird like I

don't hear a story when I listen to a

mid-tempo track or an uptempo track

there's no in my mind

storytelling in that for me so that's

where I need help so I'm sure if IID

listen to my dad I'd have a couple

Grammys by now but you know thought I

knew it all well listen every every

teenager goes through that phase so when

you were a young woman in this Hollywood

world you know the you know the music

industry as we're seeing now is is very

different different what was your

experience like being a young woman in

the industry like dealing with like

making music and dealing with producers

and I'm sure you probably met some of

the most famous people in the world what

was that like for a young pretty

woman um I I grew up in a two parent

household were a highly dysfunctional

family as I'm sure every family has

their level of dysfunction and their

stuff but um I always say as

dysfunctional as we are and were um

there are certain things that my parents

taught me that stuck with me so I was a

wild child for a second for sure but

that didn't happen until I moved out at

like

1819 um a wild child in what sense um

literally just priority is out of whack

access to everything and everyone um

partying didn't really care about a job

I was pretty I always had a rich

boyfriend

um so just kind of like H whatever not

sleeping not taking care of my voice um

and

then it was a gift and a curse because I

am extremely

talented and when I was growing up and I

was in the girl groups or like you know

my dad would take me to meetings or

sessions one there was always a parent

present I was never in a rehearsal I was

never in a studio session I was never um

at an audition I was never at a showcase

without one or both of my parents so I

was never left unattended so by the

grace of God I was not taken advantage

of

physically um and then the curse was as

I got

older and kind of came from under my

dad's umbrella and safety net then you

kind of see the darker side of the

industry you start to see the inner

workings of you know how people are like

ripping people off you know their

publishing and producer credits I've

seen some of the craziest fights in the

in the studio I've seen some of the

craziest girlfriends wives pop up I mean

from fake into to be pizza delivery

people and coming out the trunk to all

kind of stuff like it it's crazy but but

um wow and I'm stoned right now but yeah

that

happened that happened more times than I

can even remember um so it was it was

cool cuz I had access what I wanted to

create for real and take it seriously

for real um but then it sucked because

it was just like everybody just wants to

bang you but I actually have a moral

compass and I have like integrity and I

do have dignity and I'm have always been

a relationship type of

person

um and so I've always been tricked I

feel

into I've been tricked out my cat Carlos

you know basically everybody like you

know saying they want a relationship

right saying that saying that they want

the same things I want you know I knew

early on yeah I want to be married

eventually yeah I want to have kids so

guys saying what you want to hear here

and me coming from this two parent

household and being so sheltered like oh

I'm in

love Yeah floodgates open and now

started opening yeah and now it's like

oh let's take it slow but then that

makes it weird cuz now I'm in a session

and then here you come and I'm like but

it's like you don't really know I don't

really I didn't I don't know so it was

like it was a double-edged sword like

the access fun you know and then the

this and everybody knows whose daughter

I am so I felt like well I mean people

have the utmost respect for my dad so I

don't think they'd play with me but now

the older I am and I look online and I'm

looking at who's the football guy with

the toe that got amputated in the

daughter and jacquis and the thing oh

you're talking about beon Sanders and

jaquis and yeah it's like if his

daughter can get

duped like if Jay-Z

can cheat on Beyonce and we've never

found out what goes on in the elevator I

am not exempt like so I guess it just

happens like [ __ ] you know you think uh

I think her name is Deandra you think

DeAndre got duped shout from them text

messages I

saw them text messages I saw I felt so

bad cuz I've been there but like really

you're hurt it's like you're angry

typing from the other side anyway B you

got

SRA who was your first celebrity

boyfriend that you

had uh little Easy E was my first

boyfriend Easy E son mhm how old were

you um I was fresh out of high

school I met him

like I feel like I might have even met

him in my senior

year I think mhm um but I didn't lose my

virginity to him until after I graduated

high school in 2005 so that was my first

everything except for my first kiss and

what was that relationship like um it

was crazy I didn't know like he had and

shout out to you Eric you're my dog now

we're good just telling the truth um but

it was wild it was unhealthy it was

toxic we were both really young he was

already a dad um he had money my family

had

money

um so I remember like busting missions

with my friend Rachel

maritz you're busting missions we were

busting missions to his house because he

was cheating but it's like in my mind

you're not why would you cheat on me

like I really didn't think he had other

girlfriends but again here's this

naivity and me being sheltered and I'm

just like no but why isn't he answering

the phone but then you know all my other

friends were already sexually active so

like girl no this is what's going on we

need to go find out I'm like yeah you're

right we do and Rachel was is short and

she was rotund and so we would send

Rachel to the door because she

could she was like the door stopper bro

like we would use her and like shove her

in the door to like block the door so I

could get

in shout out to Big Bruce

um Eric

security for never yeah for for not

putting hands on us you know but other

than that like it was crazy it was a

time you have lived a very interesting

life we need to see the biopic of mon

Slaughter's life um who's the most

famous guy You' ever

dated Shaq you dated Shaq I didn't know

that M when um

during

20

12 on and

off um

until

201 16

what was that like a

mess toxic yeah his birthday's two days

after mine and those male Pisces I'm

March 4th he's March uh March

6th he's like divorced from shie yeah no

that was not a thing at all

and it was just like was he cheating on

you um yeah a lot and then it was like I

was dumped but didn't know I was dump

jumped until like Roxy Diaz popped up on

the internet and then I was like oh okay

and then we got matching tattoos and

then after the tattoo he was in the

Bahamas with with um hoops and I'm like

zooming in and I'm like that's the

tattoo she got it too no no no no no

like but the tattoo was like literally

we got the tattoos in like October or

November and then he was like saying to

me he was going to let me know like what

our plans were going to be for New

Year's Eve and then boom he popped up in

the Bahamas with her for new year so I

was like oh all

right

um and then I can't remember there was

like another one after Roxy and then I

was just like

okay okay so

clearly this is not like a serious

thing I and I'm his complaint was always

my mouth but I'm like it's not really my

mouth you're just mad because I'm like

stop [ __ ] other

women because did you think you were in

an exclusive relationship with SH that's

what he

said the

[ __ ] if you tell me that then yeah you

know what I mean like

yeah so off and off from 2012 to

2016 and you found out he's with Hoops

did you that was the first one it was

Hoops then he blocked me because I

confronted him about it and then he

popped back up and

then it was Roxy then I confronted him

about that and then he blocked me then

he popped back up so it was like

intervals and I'm like okay but then

it's weird because we're out in public

like we're at Habibi the hookah lounge

in West wood we're

like Miami walking through the fountain

blue people in the elevator asking him

for pictures and he's like you have to

ask her

permission so it's

like we go together yeah you come to my

apartment you sign your the Hall of Fame

ball for my

son so I mean I don't know

like then you move down the street for

me and I'm like come to the house

and so I I guess exclusive how did you

break things off with him he keep it's

just when I get

blocked then we're broken

up so you and Shaq broke up you knew you

got blocked

I mean it's not funny but you know we

can laugh at it it is it's ridiculous

it's utterly [ __ ]

ridiculous it's

dumb but that's how he breaks up so

whatever so we haven't spoken you

haven't spoken since the blockage

theage we haven't spoken

since shoot the

pandemic mhm it's been like three years

did he try to like I wouldn't know I

keep

he's always blocking me and I'm always

changing my

number so unless he unblocks me on

Instagram are you still blocked I don't

know

probably you got to check you got to

check I don't know if I'm still blocked

or not let's

see when I changed my number that was

how he found me the last time he's like

how dare you change your number and not

tell me I was like oh I'm back Moment of

Truth blocked you're still blocked

yes well you know honey you lived the

one thing I love about women like you

who are just so honest I I always tell

my friends like I love a woman who is so

honest and who lived cuz I feel like you

could sit back and be like a [ __ ] Liv I

did I you know what I wish I would have

lived for a little more money though I

was living for love I wish I should I I

wish I I wish I would have

like can I be on like on the get the

bills paid list or is that just for the

hoes or what like I heard the hoes are

winning I hear and I just want to be a

hoe so bad I do just don't have it in it

I don't have it in me yeah cuz it's like

if you're going to fly me out can I

sleep for the first 48 hours I need to

rest I need like to eat

I need to listen to my sleep music I

don't without you trying to like poke me

prod me like I have to mentally pre

prepare to just be sledded out like so

can I

just you know and it's like but then

what if I get there you're not I don't

like you

anymore you know but it's like you flew

me out so now it's

like but then no after that I'm not I'm

not a hoe but there there a ho activity

this is just a whole thing that goes on

in my mind that I'm just like I'm

probably not not going to be the best

hoe I'm probably not going to be an

obedient hoe I'm definitely not going to

be a quiet

hoe so maybe hoing is just not the route

but I a girl can dream I do I wonder

about it you be having whole dreams I

wonder about it I really do and I I

really desire to be that because they

seem like they're having a lot of fun

and they their cars are really

cool it's so I just I'm like wow I'm

missing out I'm really working and I

shouldn't have to no one else is

working but I

am this is the real life dilemma that a

lot of women are going through nowadays

I know a lot of women who are like

Carlos the hoes are winning they are and

I'm like what do you mean they're like

[ __ ] like you said to get flued out to

all over the world for a bag at the end

now granted you got to give up the goods

oh I'm not honey a

bag there's a bag on my body it's called

an inside out coin purse I'm not leave

I'm not coming to hoe and leaving with

something I came with like no the bag Oh

you mean the money bag no the bag of

money or you talking about a purse I

sometime the girls get a a nice little

you know Chanel bag but you want the ABF

Swift code numbers the wire transfers

yes yes otherwise why am I

hoing like what hoing for Shanel I

couldn't I can't no I could hoe for like

a

wraith I think I don't know what level

that is in the Rolls-Royce world but

seem very Supreme okay something

Superior yeah magnanimous Bingo mhm mhh

but you you're looking for love yeah I

am Who was the the greatest love of your

life oh that's a good

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question looking back in hindsight no

one no one

mm knowing what I know now but but back

then like who the cuz we all have have

had our heart broken right some multiple

times some one times but there's always

one Hurts the Most um oh well I'm not

going to say her name but my very much

in love um so is she um just a lot of

toxicity on both of our

parts um both being capable but also

both being completely

unwilling um because of a lack of trust

because of a difference in upbringing

because of you know not everybody deals

with depression and anxiety um the same

way I

do um our lives were completely

different when we met um so then for me

the feeling of being used started to

creep

in um she was a runner so constantly

dumping me my mouth is slick so hitting

below the belt um physical altercations

so it was just like it was too much um

but I really feel like before we got to

that point I was literally begging but I

just in my gut knew it wasn't going to

work out at the end of the day

um and so I actually wasn't

shocked um the last time she left I

wasn't and this is the only time I've

ever well between her and Shaq I've

never been dumped by anybody those are

the only two

so um but yeah we were living

together only Rel ship that I'd ever

integrated my son

into um like fully everybody else has

been either they've never met him or

it's an accident or in passing literal

passing um like dad is picking him up or

or as like passing passing um so at that

time she's the only one he'd ever met um

and when she and I first started dating

he was only six so by the time she left

the last time he was nine going on

10 um but that one was just like

crushing I literally was like oh I'll

never be I'll never be able to love

anybody ever again after her

um and I spent a lot of time like

extremely depressed and alone I mean to

the point where like I would roll

like when I say lose track of time I

would literally roll over and be

like it's me

today and roll back over like look at

the bathroom from my bed and just be

like

tomorrow so if I didn't have to pee I

was not getting up and peeing was so

quick so and then I would use like wipes

like what so in my mind I'm like okay

I'm

clean enough to change my boxers and get

back into bed but like showering

brushing my teeth eating I wasn't even

watching TV like I literally was just in

the bed and if I wasn't sleep I was

literally just laying there

Excedrin BC powder uh Red Bull Coca-Cola

coffee just that's the only thing that

got me through the weeks was my son cuz

the week I didn't have him I just wasn't

doing anything so while you was going

through that he would be with his dad if

he wasn't home so we have we weak on off

so during his dad's week I have a week

off during that week off I'm just pardon

me I'm literally doing nothing and then

I'm like okay tomorrow's Monday I got to

go get cam from school got to pull it

together I would literally sleep all day

I would get up I would go to the grocery

store get what I knew he needed go

straight from the store pick him up from

school unload the groceries and cook and

barely get through homework my son's

thirdd grade year he

had 18 tardies because I could not get

myself like out of the bed my

psychiatrist had to write a note to the

school um cuz he's in third grade

obviously he's not driving himself to

school um and then when I looked over

all the dates all of the tardies except

for one were during his time with me so

I was like okay this is like

nuts nuts and I was that way for a good

like seven months

have you been clinically diagnosed

having depression yeah situational

depression so clinical depression it's

depression triggered by a particular

situation but when the depressive State

comes on it's clinical so it's

just you get up and you fight through it

or you don't and then I just got to the

point

where I was like

okay literally the house was Dusty it

was spotless but it was Dusty

and I just I remember going downstairs

to get something to drink and I was like

this feels Eerie to know that I don't

even come down here like I literally

don't come down here like had water

stashed by the bed so I didn't have to

get up um but like the floors were

literally Dusty cuz I just nothing out

of place nothing out of sorts no rotten

food cuz I was constantly ordering in

not cooking unless I have my

son um but it felt like a scary like a

spooky house cuz I'm

like I really don't use the house like

I'm really just in the bed and then I

would go upstairs and it was to my room

and it was chaos all of the clothes all

of the bath towels I would change the

sheets just dump everything so my room

became literally like I couldn't even

walk through a closet through a bathroom

floor or the bedroom floor without

literally tromping

through things that needed to be washed

and I did laundry for a straight 3

weeks that's how much it had piled over

I was

like okay did I really wear like leather

leggings because I'm out of boxers and

sleep shorts that's nuts I'm that lazy

wow and then sometimes when I would go

get my son from school I would stop at

Target and get more boxers for me to

sleep in so I didn't have to wash

like it it was insane and then I was

just like okay yeah now I can't summer

is coming let me just get it together

and then

um Co happened and it was just like the

best thing that happened to me I was

like yes could you you have an excuse

now too well it wasn't the excuse it was

I felt like I was just overwhelmed

um uncertain about my future

professionally because I left the

show um uncertain about my financial

future because I left the show and

finding work in other areas outside of

that is so

hard um and then God it was like God

didn't just slow the world down but he

stopped it just in

time literally just in time and it gave

me a chance to just rest

relax um um my son at that point was in

homeschooled so I had to be disciplined

I had to still get up every day but now

instead of being able to get up and go

back to sleep I was a

teacher so now instead of my housekeeper

coming twice a week I was the

housekeeper um and that's where I have

to thank my parents

because I was able to do those

things um I don't think most of these

hoes these days even know how

to I don't think they know they should

be separating their colors from their

darks from their lights don't think them

hoes know to wash your whites on

hot your colors on cool and your darks

on cold did y'all know that I knew that

and I don't think they know how to try

fold bath towels either but I

do which is why we got to make sure you

find the love of your life yes but prior

to that so you brought up Love in Hip

Hop how did you get cast to be on that

show so apparently my name kept coming

up like over and over and over but I was

the first one besides Morgan Hardman um

on the cast that had a kid to have a kid

so I was out of the loop I was literally

walking to work um I had like a little

slide like Metro PCS phone with

minutes because I didn't have a job well

like and I got a job but

um living at home with my

parents and my I would get up I would

get Cam ready for school like daycare

and then I would walk to work and my dad

would take him and then my dad would

pick him up and I would walk home from

work and this one day I was walking to

the store and it was literally like two

lights from my parents house and um Lisa

Lee King called me the casting director

and she's like your name has been coming

up and we've been looking for you but no

one had a current contact for you and

she's like but then Omarian pitched Fizz

and you just so happened to

be who we were already looking for and

the mother of his child and his ex can

you come in and I actually didn't want

to do the show so I said no Twice MH um

and then they were like well you know if

if you don't do it he can't do it and I

was like well why and they're like well

because there's no way to tell his story

without you and he's a whole dad and I

was like I just feel like this nigga's

about to do a 180 on

me yeah and they were like No And I was

like yes he is they're like no he's not

and I was like you don't know him and

then sure enough that first freaking

scene they were like yeah we just want

to shoot a test scene [ __ ] swiveled

around in that studio chair 180 just

like I said hit me so low I was like

mhm here we go oh I knew it you

little I love my

son sneaky devil

you yep that's how I made it that's how

you made it and

obviously there is no Love and& Hip Hop

Hollywood without

that I mean is that false I mean look

had Ray J Who's great we'll get to that

in a second um Nikki baby you know but

obviously B2K for the black audience

right it's the iconic boy band so we

were like oh little f is on here Amar

had April we get that second to but like

you know you and F conversations and it

was the highend stakes of the

relationship that really drew the

eyeballs to it but obviously it was at

the expense of your relationship with we

weren't together well not in terms of

like the co- coting the co-parenting

relationship it was already in the

toilet when we started and that just

sent it to the septic

tank season 1 was like the [ __ ] circling

the drain literally and then season two

was that [ __ ] was like traveling through

the pipes and then season three was when

that [ __ ] hit the septic tank and then

it was like season six my final season

where the septic tank blew up and [ __ ]

just went everywhere and it was like

well now the only thing we have to do is

clean it up and so either we are or we

aren't um because I swim through [ __ ]

every time to punch you in the throat if

I have to so it's just like what are we

really like doing um and I knew that it

was going to take one of us leaving the

show to really strengthen the co the

co-parenting because I've always felt

like

there's nothing in him even to this

day that wants to do anything to help me

win in any area of my life

professionally and I'll give you a prime

example I had a thriving web series

during

covid asked him to do one episode he

said no first he said he had to check

with his people that's what he said I

need to ask my people or my team my team

I need to ask my team to see if that's

going to be a good look for me it's a

mukbang bro in my

kitchen while your son is screaming at

fortnite in his room in my home like

really um then I came up with another

uh one of the episodes was about mental

health and I was going to give him the

opportunity to discuss as a black father

dealing with a

black uh baby mama um both of

whom we've been in the public eye for a

long time and maybe Love and& Hip Hop

wasn't that proper space for him to

express what he actually really felt um

without the frustration of the

production and maybe even me you know I

don't know but to really just give him a

safe space so that I could actually

really understand um and he said he had

to check with his team to see if that

would be a good look for him so

but then he did my mom's

podcast so multiple times so you have to

take small things like

that

and this is where I am mature enough to

say that is hurtful MH I don't feel

entitled but it is very hurtful that as

the father of my child I have put many

things in your lap that could have made

you money I don't know what you did with

those opportunities but

um the publisher who did my book they

were like if they want to do a group

tell all we would love to have it you

know um when I was over at Forest bias I

was like I have a first look deal I can

pitch three shows like do y'all want to

do your I see Raz talking about X Y and

Z you know but

I give the the contacts and the

information and let both parties know

that I've done so and I move on you know

but um

our relationship is was just crummy but

that's my dog now so are you guys good

now yeah good relationship co-parenting

he let me use his washer and

dryer he

did well that's a good step in the right

direction yeah he wasn't in town though

and he also said that I could use his

shower too because my pipes the pipes at

my house had burst and so he was like he

actually made a joke and told me to wash

my coochie since I didn't have water and

I was like well [ __ ] you I already went

to my gay husband's house and took a

shower but hahahaha anyway um so that

was nice you know I never in a million

years thought wow I still brought my own

detergent but it's just the fact that

like he let me use his washer and

dryer that was nice no that's good I

mean listen it it it goes to show you

that you know he's making baby steps yes

I appreciate it you know we like that is

he is he dating anybody I don't know you

guys don't talk about we do not mm you

keep it just to the kid absolutely 100%

have you reconciled your friendship with

April Jones

no why haven't you extend it why would I

extend

anything you don't I don't need to fix

something I didn't break

so I don't need to extend anything I

don't need to extend my arm to pick up

the phone to dial I don't need to

extend my

thumbs um to text I don't need to

extend my brain power or

energy

um on a

Reconciliation

um I don't need to extend my lips

anymore to even talk about

her wish her the best you wish her the

best mhm is the door is closed yeah yeah

forever though

100% monise not forever ever ever ever

do but when I die put her in the back at

my

funeral yes there's no room because the

back five rows on each side of the

church the the last five pews those are

for people that I don't like that I need

in my death to know I've literally told

my cousins if lest you survive me and we

are still young enough this is how this

seating is going to go the people I

don't like I need them in the in the

last five pews on both sides the most

ridiculous ones I want you to make an

example out of them I'm going to leave

some handwritten letters I want you to

read what I genuinely feel about these

people and what I've carried with them

in my carried in my heart yes what I

think about them feel about them and

have carried about them in my heart

until I until my cast get literally

dropped this is how she felt about you

literally and then I want the next five

pews on both sides to be the people that

I'm not too sure about but make an

example for the rest of them make an

example out of them for the other ones

that I wasn't sure about the ones that I

know I wasn't sure about read why I

wasn't sure about them [ __ ] too so

that the rest of the [ __ ] that I'm not

sure about now know that maybe I'm in

this group because I'm in this

group and so she would go in the last

five pews of my funeral for sure if I

died in the next like God forbid knock

on wood I'm about a baby but lest I meet

an untimely passing by like before the

age of like

60 cuz I know I have like some cousins

that really are still going to ride for

me at that

point they'll execute my final wishes

that's how closed the door is

like cuz the back five pews also have to

be dismissed because they're not allowed

to go to my repass and get free fre food

and

entertainment so you came to church

hungry for a service you got red for

built and now you're leaving before the

repass who will be sitting next to April

in that row is there anybody else that

we may know that would be in the same

row as

April no that's okay not that I could

think of

okay I'm shocked monise I I I wasn't

aware that the issue that you the whole

like a Maran April

um monice thing because obviously I know

you were upset because April started

dating Fizz and obviously it was the

lies it was the lies it was the lies it

was embarrassing because I had been

defending them I literally said out loud

to K Michelle I don't think they'd be

that morally

bankrupt because I knew that they were

hanging out and like vacationing and

stuff from like 201617

like literally pictures of them in

Mexico but it didn't look

like a

thing um excuse me and it was a

group so I was

like I whatever so I never said anything

to him or her about it um I also know

the father of my child so I know he was

mad at omaran and I know that this has

been a thing that he has done to Omar om

Aran throughout the years even when they

were in the

group um everybody that omaran

liked Here Comes Drew and I knew that

April was

vulnerable um and

so even when they came on the show I

still was

like not thinking they were a

thing my son hadn't mentioned it um and

then one day he did

literally

like

just driving down the street and good

old Calabasas and my son's like oh

there's where um he said no D April and

Daddy have a house right here I knew I

was close to your house and I was

like oh that's nice and he's like yeah

except I have to share a room with mega

and I was like

oh okay never said anything to his dad

never said anything to her and then one

day I was like what's the street cam now

at this point I've already we've already

been filming mhm so months have gone by

in between cam making that voluntary

statement and this next occurrence which

is we're

driving literally um same road and I'm

like what was the street Cam and he's

like I don't know you need to ask my dad

cuz that's none of my business so he

said you need to talk to him about it

and then we started doing exchanges at

the Starbucks

on Ventura and

Tanga and it was like he would smash out

of that parking lot like sir no one is

trying to follow you home okay I don't

give a

[ __ ] um I just don't know where my kid

is living but I at the time that made me

mad because I'm like I'm sure Omari

knows where his kids

are but why am I being ostracized and I

don't I didn't even [ __ ] ask matter

of fact I was def you little critters

you little Hood boogers I was defending

you legit and I felt like it was more of

a disloyal action towards omaran more so

than it was to me but did you feel like

she broke the girl code oh for sure

100% um and that's that's the ultimate

betrayal for you no the ultimate

betrayal was

the fact that you joined in on the

bandwagon of kick me while I was down

but then you sat there and cried

about going through the same things

allegedly at the hands of

omaran so for you to have been a now

single mom and for you to be back on the

same platform as me after you

left um because you were in a

relationship and he felt like you guys

should move on from

that

um and then for you to have been

experiencing the same things that I was

saying I was experiencing

allegedly um and then for you

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to accuse me of having a problem with

you because you're dating

him I could give to craps about who the

man

dates the thing is then you start

telling my son things like oh you need

to ask my dad the thing is now you're

showing up at my door at 10:00 at night

and you've never even been to my house

and never even had my address which

means the only way you could have gotten

there is that he gave it to you or he

drove you so which one is it and he

drove you to my home and you felt

comfortable enough to come knock on my

door while my son was inside to give me

the book for summer school the crazy

thing about that is to say that you're

not gaslighting me is crazy because the

only time I don't unravel for the most

part I have made some had emotional

breakdowns and outbursts in front of my

child yes but when it comes to his dad

he's I don't that's not it it's no we

don't do that

so

um girl [ __ ] you because you knew I

wasn't about to blow up in my own house

in front of my child and you come waving

the book White tank top no bra on like

boxers so it's like you know first of

all the fact that you were even

comfortable doing that on my doorstep is

nuts cuz I should have socked you in

your throat and then tased you and

watched you pee on yourself but I

didn't so you know I

just that type of behavior it wasn't the

dating you're you're asked for that for

sure but it then it was just

like the mounting

disrespect it was crazy it was wild

it was nuts and then I was having like

behind the scenes cuz

um om aran's manager good friends with

my mom um so I was just like

okay and that's what I always try to

explain to people for me it's not it's

way deeper than just what people are

seeing on the camera this is a result of

now my parents coming to me saying okay

well I know you didn't do this you

didn't cause this this is not you know

yes it's part of your story line but

when you deal with it we it would be

best that you probably deal with it this

way because then other things are

affected MH friendships off camera are

affected business relationships off

camera are affected if I fly off the

handle and I also don't like that it's

always me that has to hold it together

it's always me that's held to the your

better than that standard it's always me

that can't come undone but that's not

even my person personality type so it's

something that I have to work on really

hard and now I'm in these scenes guts

bubbling head hurting back tight you

know what I'm saying tongue turning

white [ __ ] cuz I'm dehydrated cuz I

really just this is not how I would

handle things but now I'm in here trying

to handle things appropriately and it's

hard it's

like okay well [ __ ]

it do you feel like your very

misunderstood I feel like I'm slightly

misunderstood yes I will beat your ass

yes I'm very

intelligent

um you're very pretty thank you um I'm

very I think the misunderstandings are

that I don't do anything I just sit

around on the internet and just comment

all day

um I comment mostly at nighttime when

I'm in my bed just for anyone who cared

and and the day is over or like if I

have surgery and I'm recovering and I

can't move or do anything and I'm

bedridden um you know in between

antibiotic cycles and pain pills and

things like that then I'll comment you

know

but I think it's there's a grave

misunderstanding that I just don't do

anything there's a grave

misunderstanding that the things that I

comment and that I

say are just coming from some weird

space in my

mind and people forget like I had a

whole life before lies and flip-flop is

it possible that you called it what lies

and flip-flop is it possible

that I've experienced this is it

possible that I'm commenting from a

space of personal experience and just

like you said I have lived quite a life

I have had a lot of experience some

negative some good I mean you know

so there I think there's this

misunderstanding that I'm not talented I

think that there's this misunderstanding

that I don't

actually have my kid I just stop I just

don't share my son anymore unless he

asks to be shared um because

[ __ ] on the internet are so

ridiculous

and I'm the mom that will absolutely

find your IP and show up like I am that

parent so it's like you can't go that

far like with me and my kid it's

probably not the safest thing to do

you're better off in a Grizzly enclosure

at the LA Zoo not the zoo The

Zo well no listen you are Mally talented

I mean listen not everyone can say they

sang the theme song to America's Next H

model true you know what I'm saying I

just remembered I did like a little

background Moment On The Prince of Egypt

soundtrack with my dad as well girl

that's what I'm saying I was a kid I and

it didn't it didn't I thought about it

the other night because I saw the Prince

of Egypt I was like didn't I do a

background or two on there with my my

god brother and my brother and my god

sister I think we did you did you're

very talented and listen you also are

very opinionated like like all of us are

I we I comment on people stuff too

listen you are known for your comments

you you recently commented on Megan's

Law you didn't like that Megan the

stallion utilized the Megan's Law and

her song you're very vocal about that

and you said something along the lines

of her family sh Sue Megan the stallion

do you feel strongly about that still

why um this is literally just what I

said like

imagine losing your child in the most

one of the most horrific ways that a

parent could lose a

child sexual assault and

murder at the age of

seven on your block that you thought was

safe

and while you lobbied for

legislation for years and years and

years or however long it took for the

law to actually go into effect um and to

be become a federal

law I would think that it would be very

painful to know that yes we did Lobby

for this legislation at the expense of

my slain

daughter and then I mean I've didn't do

my research but I've never heard of like

anybody in the urban community ever

donating to the Megan konka

Foundation I've never heard of you know

anybody sending their condolences on the

anniversary of of her passing to her

parents in the urban

community so to use

it as a direct

shot at another

woman because of the allegations against

that woman's husband I get that this is

rat beef and I get that it's a no bars

hold and I get all of that but I do feel

like people's

children and people's

deceased loved ones should be off

limits

um cuz don't you ever profit off my pain

the especially the pain of me

losing a parent losing a child you know

so yeah I want every red scent and I

wanted to go to the Megan cona

Foundation cuz isn't the whole thing

here well she brought attention to the

law I didn't even know well that's not

my problem I knew what the law was I

remember my parents not letting us go

outside to play

unsupervised even though we we did grow

up with a silver spoon in our mouths and

in an affluent you know predominantly

white area like it didn't matter so I

remember um that and I have a family

again who through our dysfunction I'm

very

educated so I was educated Beyond just

us MH you know and so to me it just was

a super low low blow and I don't listen

to secular music much I promise I don't

I'm very much a gospel girl so um I

don't know what shots were fired

from pun intended um from Nicky's side

to Meg's side that made Meg go that low

but multiple things can be true at once

I still feel like it was a shitty thing

to do and I feel like her parents or her

foundation deserve a piece of the money

that Megan is profit profited off

of you were also reselling the news for

something going on with Gorilla that was

old have you a gorilla made up girl I

will

never ever no ever you're ever because

like you said you're very educ at so I

felt like you were just trying to

educate on the music business on splits

and Publishing well I think what did it

for her was because I said it's true if

it weren't for hit kid we wouldn't know

her

um and I only said that because let's

face it that is the hit that put you on

the

map

Nationwide okay you could have already

been a hood Legend cool but you know

I had never heard of her before that and

there's nothing wrong with

that no one had heard of me publicly

before Love & Hip

Hop no one had heard of knew that my

kid you know is a B2K that I had a kid

by a B2K member unless they were in my

family and my immediate friend Circle

because we didn't have all of this

social media and podcast and reality TV

was a thing but it wasn't what it is now

you know so there was still a level of

privacy that we had even our first

season you know we still had a certain

level of privacy

um

and you then slid in my DM and the first

thing you brought up is my

kid and then you reported the

DMS and then you go to the label to have

my page

taken and you're you're subbing me on

Twitter and okay cool the worst part the

publisher didn't want to give me the

back end for my book I had to

refund

um Black Friday and Cyber Monday

promo all in all I lost out on 67 Grand

because I didn't have a social media and

then you did

this in

November right before the holidays

so yeah no you took from my child

nothing I said took from you nothing I

said damaged your career nothing I said

was incorrect and nothing I said did I

feel was

disrespectful now if you felt

disrespected you could have just said

that it gave very much I used to watch

you and I was a fan and your comment

because it's you gained a lot of

traction meanwhile I was looking at

other Grammy nominated songwriters and

producers with blue checks clearly you

are not a musician miss Ma Miss ma'am

because if you were you would have known

that these Grammy Award winners below me

whose comments might not be getting as

much traction but they still have blue

checks but the public is not really

aware of a lot of producers so those

comments get looked over

the consumer doesn't know how it works

when multiple people are writing a song

so when they see these people in the

comments you have no idea that person

penned some of your favorite records

that y'all [ __ ] is still in the club

shaking ass to at 40 and 40 [ __ ] five

and some of y'all old freaknick hoes too

[ __ ] so it's like you know it gave very

much my feelings are hurt and that's

okay I would have apologized because I

know what my intentions were and were

not mhm M and it was not to disrespect

her so her and that nose spread wider

than the Himalayas and I will never be

friends

Hallelujah put her next to to April at

my

funeral they could sit together so we

have a plus one