¿ Qué va a ser de mi vida ? 📍¿? 🇩🇪

Life is putting a question right

in my face and I don't know where to

begin or how to answer it. There is

good news and there is some news

that is not so good. In this process

of going to study my master's degree in

Germany. Every morning one of the

first things I do is check my

email, because all

the important things arrive there, the processes I

'm currently going through—

the visa, the health insurance, the university,

everything, everything arrives in the email. So,

I wake up and one of the first things I

do is open my email. And today some

good news arrived because I received an

acceptance letter for a master's degree in

Germany. I already mentioned that I applied to

eight different master's programs, two of them have

already rejected me and two of them, two and a

half, had already accepted me, but one of

them had not sent me my

acceptance letter and the acceptance letter is

that document that makes it official that you

have a place in that master's program, at that

university. Then, I just received

an email saying that I had been

accepted and that they were going to check my papers

to make sure everything was complete and that they were going

to send me the letter. That was on

June 20th. It's

July 22nd now and I hadn't received anything, I

mean, nothing after that email. And I

started wondering, I mean, if they already

accepted me, if I already passed the interview,

what are they checking so much of? I understand that there are

many of us and that there are many programs at the university

and that these processes

take time, but if you have already

told me that I am accepted,

then giving me the acceptance letter

is

the next step. So, it

caused me a lot of confusion that it wasn't

arriving and it wasn't arriving and it wasn't arriving,

and I would ask, send emails, and they would

tell me, "Be patient, sister." Can't

. Well, I got the

acceptance letter and I was like, "Great,

great, because now I'm officially in for three years

, two were

rejected, but I'm still wondering

why my first choice hasn't contacted me

yet. I've already passed several stages with my first choice—

documentation, interviews—and we're supposed to be making

progress, just

a step away from the goal. And I

still haven't heard from

them either. The interview was

over a month ago. So, I don't know if it's

because it's one of the

most prestigious universities in Germany or because

their processes are more involved and

more thorough with all the

students. But, like, my mom keeps

asking me, "Where are you going?" What are we going

to do? "Where am I going to

take you?" And I don't know, I still don't know,

because even though three universities have already accepted me

, my first choice has

n't yet. So until I know if my

first choice accepts me or rejects me, I ca

n't move and I can't be

certain, say, "This is going to happen."

Well, I haven't received the offer from my first

choice yet, but if it doesn't

come through, if they reject me, I already have to

have a plan B. Where am I going to

go if they reject me?

Obviously, if they accept me, I'll go with

them. Or at least that's what I thought. But

if they reject me, I have these three

options. And of these three options,

where am I going to go? The first one

I received was from Bauhouse

Baimar, the second was Technici

University Darmstad, and the third was the

University of Brandenburg, which I think

is Bradenburg in Spanish. So,

I have to decide where I'm going to go

because time is running out.

It's July, the end of July, and the

semester starts in October, but I

already My flight is in September.

So, I need to know now, I need to get

things sorted out and know what I'm going to

do with my life.

But now comes the question I don't

know how to approach:

which one am I going to choose? Because even though

I already had a ranking, like on my

iPad here, of first choice, second choice

, third choice, fourth choice,

things have changed a bit.

Being accepted to university is one thing, but

finding a place to

live is another. Of these three options, the

cheapest to live in is Baimar. Baimar

is in central Germany,

and rent there is roughly between €200, €

250

, or €300 per month.

Oh, then there's Darmstad, where

they start at €300. What's expensive

for Baimar in Darmstad, I think, is the

minimum for me. Oh, Darmstad starts at €

300 and goes up to about €400. But

then we move on. As for Brandenburg, I

think I'm going to reject that one because I've

already looked into the program. And I'm not that keen on it

. It was an option I applied for

because at that moment I thought, I said,

"I need one of them to accept me, I'm not

interested, but I need one of the

eight to accept me." And that option

wasn't really what I wanted.

So, I don't think I'll even

look for a place to live there.

And the third option is Berlin, where I haven't been

accepted. So, I started

looking in Berlin. In Berlin, they start at

400, but the average is more or less

600 euros a month.

So

I said, "Well, in my opinion, my first

choice is Berlin, where I haven't been

accepted." That option is the most

expensive. Oh, damn it, why did I have to

choose that one? Ah, I don't like Berlin.

Berlin is a very big city, it's

similar to Mexico City, lots of chaos,

traffic, people. No, I'm fine in

a small town. Put me there, I

like you there, but it just so happens that

they have the program I'm

interested in in Berlin. Firstly, it is a

dual master's degree where one year will be in Berlin

and the other year will be in China.

So, in the end I'm going to get two

master's degrees, one issued by the

University of Berlin and the other by the

University of China, which really

adds a lot to my resume. And the fact that I

have the opportunity to get to know another

continent while I'm studying, the

truth is that it excites me, it excites me a

lot. The problem is that it's very

expensive.

And you know what the biggest problem is? And

that's the not-so-good news:

today I started looking for accommodation

to see how much it would cost and roughly

where I would live. And firstly, for

Berlin, in order for me to apply for

student accommodation, they ask for my

acceptance letter, which I don't have.

So I can't submit my application

yet. And besides, what I said most was,

"What are you talking about?"

My master's degree lasts four

semesters, two years. And it says that the

waiting time, once you submit your

application, the waiting time for you to be

assigned a place to live

can be up to two to three semesters.

Look, [suppressed scream]

my degree, well, my master's degree lasts 4

semesters and you're telling me that you take

two to three semesters to give me a place to live, well

, never mind. No, it's better if you don't give me

anything. [suppressed scream]

So I said, "No, well, what's

going on? What's happening here?

Because if I go to Baar, they say there's

availability. Logically, you list

your three options and they might give you one

of the three, but if there's no

accommodation available, they might give you something else, but

that everything's fine. If you go to

Darmstad, which are the two places I've

already applied to, well, they also

tell you, "It's competitive, but there are

different housing options, so

give me your options and we'll see what's

up."

In Berlin, they're already telling you,

"Better look elsewhere." And

rent in Berlin is incredibly expensive. So,

I started questioning

whether I really want to go to my first

choice.

The program is a dream. I feel like I

can grow and take full advantage of this

academic opportunity and potentially turn it into a

professional window, an

advantage in my life, yes, professionally. I

mean, I feel like it has very good

benefits,

but I have to support myself for two years before I can

start working

full-time. And When I

posted my application to the

Baimar student residence, I fell in love

.

I fell in love with the

student residence I posted about.

It's beautiful, the price is affordable, it

has views of green areas, it's

super close to the university, it has

everything, but look, everything I've said, that's where I

want to be. I saw that house

and I said,

I can already see myself there, I can see myself living there,

and of course I'm applying to

different places to live because I

still don't know which one. So, I

prefer to send applications and have them

tell me, "We have your house." And

then I can tell them, "Look, you know what?" I won't

need it anymore. You can

give it to the next person on the

waiting list, instead of me suddenly saying, "Ah,

I'll take this one." and that

suddenly there is no place left to live.

So, I'm kind of preparing

for the future,

but I don't know anymore,

because part of me is saying,

"Stay with Baimar, stay with the one that

makes you feel good." The program isn't that

great because you don't do any

exchanges here, they don't give you a double master's degree

, it's just a

regular master's degree, but it has a

very computational focus. I mean, my

undergraduate degree is in

architecture, and this master's is in

urban design, but this urban design is

computational. So, you're going to do,

I'm going to do plans and proposals and

layers and layers and data, all on a

computer; it's not so much design.

So I said, well, I don't

like it that much, but it's an option, so

I stayed. And this option, honestly,

treated me superbly from the beginning

because I submitted my paperwork, they interviewed me, I

passed the

interview, and two days later there was my

acceptance letter.

Congratulations on being accepted to this

university. And I said, thank you, because with

that I was able to get my visa. Right now I already

have my visa, which I got the last time

I went Getting a visa to Germany was torture

. So, I appreciate and am

grateful that this university,

Bauhouse Bimar, has made the process

very quick, but I don't like the program that

much. I do like the city; it's small.

Now, I asked our

artificial intelligence,

"Did you want me in my home?" [laughs]

According to my goals and

life objectives, which are to position myself in

international companies, to work in design

with real proposals, I asked it to

work at OneHabitat, at TIFU, which

are organizations—one is German and the

other is the UN—in those kinds of

global,

large organizations. I want to position myself in one

of those, and the artificial intelligence

told me, "Sister,

you have to go." The first option is

Berlin, the one I haven't accepted. Your

second option is Baimar. Your third

option is Darmstad. And if all else fails, the

last one is Brandenburg.

And I said, "Okay,

we're doing well, because let's say

Berlin doesn't accept me, and honestly, I put so much effort

into that application, I put so much effort

into that interview, but I

also think that just as I'm

very capable and I prepared myself and I have things, I

have, well, my experience and all

those jobs and everything that adds up

as a student, I understand that there are also

students much more prepared and

qualified than me. Uh, I would get that

feeling of, no, I didn't get in,

but it would also bring me a

huge peace of mind because

finding a place to live in

Berlin is going to be tough. It's going to be

tough because the place where

I'm supposed to stay already told me, '

Look elsewhere.' Yes, you can send

your application, but we suggest you look

elsewhere.

So, it would bring me a little

peace of mind. I would stay in Baimar.

I already sent my application to Baimar. My health

insurance has already

notified the

university that I'm

insured, I

already have The visa—and on the visa I put

that I was going to that university. So,

on paper, things are

pointing in that I'll go to Baimar.

But I also don't want to

say, "Well, I give up, I'm going

to Baimar," because I need

the University of Berlin to either accept me

or reject me. I'm not going to be the person

who says, "Well, since they've taken so long

, I'd better go this way."

No, reject me so that I can continue on

my path and see where I live, where

I stay. And now this is a

very big question and it causes me a lot of

confusion

and a lot of stress, because this is a

big life decision. Right now I

'm practically deciding what's going to

happen to me, to my future for the next two

years, and I'm going to take this master's degree and

this master's degree is going to have its own

consequences. In what areas will I be

able to position myself professionally? What

contacts will I be able to make at the

university to later integrate into

an office, organization, or

international institution? I mean, I feel like right now I

'm deciding something big,

something big in my life.

And I don't know,

the idea I have now, or what I'm going

to do after thinking about it a bit, is

wait for Berlin to tell me, "Hey, we've

accepted you," or "Thank you so much for

applying."

And if they accept me, I'm going to go to Berlin. I do

n't know how I'm going to find

a place to live, but I already

saw that Berlin is in a ranking called

T9, TU9, something like that, which is one of the

most prestigious universities in

Germany. So you think, that counts.

Graduating from UNAM with honors

and a good GPA. Well, that counts for me being able to

apply for the master's program. So,

that counts for having better

or greater job opportunities.

And if you add to that the fact that I'm going to get

two master's degrees from two

different continents, and that it's focused

on both design and the practice of

public policy, I

feel like it's very complete. The only

downside is that it's very expensive to

live there, and the safe option I was

considering for where to live

already turned me down. Besides, in the other

two, you can send your application and they don't

ask for an acceptance letter. In the one of

Berlin does require an acceptance letter.

I don't have one, so I can't even

apply right now.

And well, that was the not-

so-good news, because now my world's been turned upside down,

and my ranking of

universities—

first choice, second choice, third

choice—is no longer like that. My first choice

was Berlin, my second choice was

Darmstad, my third choice

was another one that I don't think has even

given me a chance—uh, the architecture program at Bismar,

which hasn't even given me any indication of whether it's

good or not, you're already out. And

right now, my first choice

seems to still be Berlin. My

second choice is Bismar. Even though I do

n't like the program that much, I feel like I

can benefit a lot from it

. And honestly,

rent is €200, where do I sign up? And I loved the house

.

So that's

life, this crazy life.

See you tomorrow. M.